And then I woke up.
With the birth of my son came the Birth of a new Reality for me.
I woke up to the Knowing that there was more for me.
That I wasn't living my life to the fullest.
And I wanted so badly to start Living.
I asked the deeper questions:
Who am I? What is my Purpose here on Earth?
And I thought someone else could give me the answers. A psychic, maybe? A coach?
But I had the answers all along, in my heart.
I am a Creator. I am Love. My Purpose on Earth is to Live as Creator. To Embody my role so Lovingly, so Purely, that it turns on the lights of others. To Serve Humanity by Being Me. That's it.
And how I choose to do that?
Well, as the Creator, that is up to me. In whatever way energizes me. I ask myself, what would I feel the best "doing"- Creating? And that's what I do.
But I want to tell you something- this Journey was not always easy. I fought my Power until I was in a state of overwhelm.
All overwhelm really is anyways is doing things that aren't really for You.
And my God, was I doing everything that wasn't for me. I was hustling. I was pushing. I was thinking. I was living with anxiety that I wasn't going to accomplish my goals.
I was about to give up. To turn auto-pilot back on, find a job, try to be happy living a "normal" life.
And then God intervened. I received a message from someone, who then became a mentor to me, and she told me that I was simply not honoring my true nature.
I lived like a feather in the wind because it was natural- it is my natural state to be at ease. (Isn't it everyone's?) But I had been told it was "wrong" so many times that I spun into doing the complete opposite.
All I really needed was to Know that floating in my own River of Creation was much more joyful.
What I'm saying here is that I stepped out of auto-pilot into a Conscious Reality- one where I was the Creator. One in which I could be all the things I desire to be simultaneously without limitations.
I still must embody this more deeply every day.
As a mom and a wife I must be Present for my family. But what I have come to understand is that those roles in my life are not disconnected from my ultimate role as Creator. Because when I am embodying my Power, I show up more wholly for Everyone.
The more radiant my light, the more Lights get turned on.
I have stepped out of the role of Victim and into the role of Creator. This is my Reality, and it can be yours, too.
This is what I am here to Teach you to Master.
But most of all, I am here to be Love. To experience Beauty and Magic in every moment. I promise you that this is all available to you, too.
I love you.